Saturday, November 09, 2013

Pulling The Curtain Back

I found this through one of the links I posted about a few months ago and thought I'd give it a whirl and answer the questions myself.  If you're interested in answering them yourself,   copy and paste them in comments or answer them on your own blog and leave me a link.

1.  Are you doing what you truly want to do?
I love what I'm doing, and I think it's what I truly want to do right now, but I don't think it's what I truly want to do forever.  I'm not exactly sure I even know what I truly want to do but I have some ideas.  Flying trapeze artist isn't one of them.

2.  Do you have a dream to follow?
Not really.  Not a lifelong dream.  I guess I have aspirations and things I want, or even long for, and technically that describes a dream, but I can't say something like, "My dream has always been to be an actress."

3.  Are you proud of what you’re doing or what you’ve done?
Yes, I am proud.  Of everything I'm doing and have done.  I am so proud to be driving a truck, mastering the bigness of it and traveling so extensively in it.  Every time I sit up in that high seat, above all the other traffic, maneuvering 40 tons, I get a rush.  And I'm very proud of my where my writing
has taken me, even though I've done next to nothing to promote it.  Imagine what I could do if I actually pimped myself out a little?!

4.  How many promises have you made and how many of them have you fulfilled?
I really try not to promise anything I can't follow through on.  I pride myself on being reliable and doing what I say I'm going to do.  But I'm sure there must have been something that slipped through the cracks, something maybe I promised and didn't do.  I can't say how many I'm made and how many I've fulfilled, but hell, I just turned 46 a few months ago, so I'm sure there are quite a few. 

5.  What’s the one thing you really want to do but have never done so, and why?
I really want to spend an extended period of time in a snowy, foreign location.  Like Switzerland.  Or the Italian alps.  Russia.  Qu├ębec.  And I don't know why - I guess it just keeps getting pushed off - but it just never seems to happen.  But it's going to.

6.  Have you ever failed anyone who you loved or loved you?
I am sure I have.  I can't think of any particular instance, and I have never had anyone tell me outright that I straight up failed them.  But I have parents, so I'm sure I failed something at some point.

7.  Will you take a shot if the chance of failure and success is 50-50?
Hell, yeah.  Why not? 

8.  If you could travel to the past in a time machine, what advice would you give to the 6-year-old you?
Learn a language.  Save money.  Make investments.  Learn about other countries and cultures to prepare for travel.  Learn a trade.  Boys are and will always be dumb. 

9.  Will you break the rules because of something/someone you care about?
Absolutely.  Something or someone I care about is always more important than rules.

10.  Have you ever abandoned a creative idea that you believed because others thought you were a fool?
No.  I don't really care if people think I'm a fool.  I just wish I'd had a crazy creative idea that people thought I should abandon.

11.  What would you prefer? Stable but boring works or interesting works with lots of workload?
I would take either, I think.  Stable but boring leaves times for other things.  Interesting is great, but I don't like my workload to overshadow my life.  If I had to take work home, or stay late, I'd likely reconsider.  Although, if it were interesting enough to not feel like work, that might be different.

12.  Are you afraid of making mistakes even though there’s no punishments at all?
No.  I'm not afraid of making mistakes.  I wouldn't even be afraid of making mistakes if there were punishments.  That's why they're called mistakes.

13.  If you would clone yourself, which of your characteristics you wouldn’t want to be cloned?
Oooooh.  This is revealing.  Well, I'm pretty controlling.  That's not so good all the time.  I interrupt a lot in conversation - I've been told that's not such a great characteristic.  Ummm...I'm loud?  It's hard to say though because these characteristics make me who I am.  And the whole concept of a clone is to create someone who is exactly like you.  Maybe I'd make my clone thinner.  Yeah.  Still controlling, still loud, still interruptive, just thinner.  

14.  What’s the difference between you and most of the other people?
I think I pay extraordinary attention to detail.  I'm extremely observant and aware of my surroundings.  I think words matter.  I believe in the age of the internet, so if you're going to have an online presence, you need to pay attention to your spelling and grammar and the way you come across in words - there are only so many times you can blame your phone's auto-correct feature before people start thinking you're stupid.  And as I've said before when I've made this particular criticism, there's probably a spelling or grammar error right under my nose.  If you find it, I'll play the "phone auto-correct" card.

15.  Are you making some influences on the world or constantly being influenced by the world?
I think there's a little of both.  I think I've influenced people in my life, with my blog, through my adventures.  And I think I've been influenced by people I've met, things I've read, places I've seen, etc.  It doesn't seem possible for me to choose one over the other.

16.  The thing you cried for last time, does it matter to you now or will it matter to you 5 years later?
It doesn't matter now and it won't matter in five years but of course at the moment, it was monumental.

17.  Is there anything you can’t let go of but you know you should?
Oh, sure.  I don't dwell though.  I don't let any one thing have too much power over me.  Well, except maybe my annoyance at just about everything.  Yeah, I should probably let that one go. 

18.  Do you remember anyone you hated 10 years ago? Does it matter now?
There's only one person in my life that I've ever truly hated.  It didn't matter then and it doesn't matter now, but I still hate her.  As for anyone else....nope, I don't really have hate for anyone.

19.  Which makes you happier, to forgive someone or to hate someone forever?
Well, I easily forgive people.  That's second nature to me.  But I can happily hate someone forever. 

20.  What are you worrying about and what’s the difference if you stop worrying about it?
I really don't worry about anything.  I've always been fortunate to have most things just work out.

21.  If you’d die now, would you have any regrets?
Yeah, I'd probably have a few.

22.  Which one would you prefer, having a luxurious trip alone or having a picnic with people you love?
A luxurious trip alone. 

23.  Who do you admire and why?
The first two definitions I found for ADMIRE are:  1. To regard with pleasure, wonder, and approval. 2. To have a high opinion of; esteem or respect.  So there are plenty of people I regard with pleasure, wonder and approval and have a high opinion of.  The short list are many of those closest to me:  Ed, my brother, my mother, my best friend Vicki, and my friend Marlaina.  All of these people are awesome in their own way and I definitely have admiration for each of them.

24.  Is there anyone who inspired you and made you who you are today?
There's not anyone in particular who's inspired me directly, but I'd say my mother, father, and certain family members have made me who I am today.  I love the way I do because of them.  I am generous because of them.  I argue the way I do because of them.  I'm funny because of them.  I'm happy because of them.  I can cook because of them.  I have good friendships and know how to care for people close to me because of them.  Yeah, I'd say they have a lot to do with making me who I am. 

25.  What’s the thing you’re most satisfied with?
My ability to be happy with what I have.

26.  When was the last time you laughed and what did you laugh at?
Last night, watching "King of Queens".  They're on late at night, repeats of course, but so funny I regularly think I'm going to die laughing.

27.  Are you doing anything which makes you and people around you happy?
My writing makes me happy and I think it makes others happy as well from what I've been told.  I'm sure I'm not making the people I'm around every day (Ed) happy every day, but I think that's kind of impossible.  I don't usually do anything specifically to be happy because I'm usually happy just doing whatever it is I'm doing.  So I don't try too hard.

28.  Is there anyone who you love or loves you?
Oh, there are tons of people I love and an equal amount who love me.  I always feel loved and there's always someone out there who I feel love for. 

29.  When was the last time you really talked with your parents/family?
I really talk with my mother all the time.  I talk to my brother as often as he'll allow (he's a lot busier than I am and getting him on the phone is sometimes like calling the Pope).  I talk to my cousin often via text or instant message, and I talk to my best friend Vicki (who I consider family) several times a week.

30.  If happiness is a currency, how rich do you think you are?
I'd say I'm a millionaire.  There are probably things that could happen that would take my happiness level up to the billionaire level, but how many people complain about being a millionaire?

31.  If today were to be the end of the world, what would you do?
Gather all my family together in one place and eat, look at old photos, laugh and reminisce. 

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
2012: A Great Way To End The Week

2011: Squirreled Away In Olean
2010: Home Sweet Home
2009: You Build It, We’ll Haul It
2008: The Canadian MJ II
2007: Eddie In The Half Moon Hall Friday
2006: The Italian Death March
2005: How You Doin’?

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